Kumusta naman ang pagiging single?

I was talking to an old friend whom I haven’t seen for ages and we were doing the usual catching up when she asked me the last question I wanted to hear, “Kumusta naman ang pagiging single?” I don’t know if she was being sarcastic or what. Truth is, after being in a long relationship, I don’t want to be reminded that I’m single. It’s like telling a blind person that she’s blind. I mean, there’s no need to salt the wound.

I’ve been in a relationship for the longest time, and when I was thrown in the single world I didn’t know what to do. I’d like to say that being single is better than being in a couple, but there are times when a big chunk of me would want to be in one again. Before you start raising your eyebrows, I’m not going back with him. Anyone who knew both of us would say that we had a good run albeit how things ended but one has to know when a story is over. Neither will I go to a string of dates to fill in the void. Actually, dating made me realize how NOT ready I am to date.

My answer by the way to the question was, “it’s not so bad” and it really isn’t.

There are just times when I want that hug, that voice, that smile which obliterates every hitch around. Sure, friends and family are always around. But everyone who’s been inlove would agree with me that it’s still different, every single thing is different with that special one. Even the fights are special. It’s like the first few minutes of P.S. I Love you where Hilary & Gerard Butler were fighting and all I could think of is that I want to have someone to shout at again. Someone to bicker with, play who’s-got-a-bigger-ego games with, someone to throw the vase at (yeah, I do that), and then say “I’m sorry” in the sweetest tone possible. Darn, I gotta stop myself here!

And although I’m not ready to jump into a relationship yet, I’m looking forward for the time when I can once again sing, “I’m only me when I’m with you” or “in the morning you’re my super double caffeine drink.” That’s how it feels when you’re in love, ayt?

Right now though, there’s no need to rush things. Cliché it is, but I think (after seven friggin’ years) I have to be single and learn to enjoy being one. After all, I’m not so alone. I’ve got my fellow single friends who will make this phase FUN! Plus, it’s one less person on my gift list which means I get to buy more stuff for ME! Oh, the stuff we say to make ourselves happy. Lol